BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Why is this world turning against me?

My heart was broken into pieces when i heard it.
I am too broken hearted now.
I am too disappointed.
Whatever happened really weaken every part of my body.
I just cant stop crying, yes i admit, IM CRYING.
Cant stop thinking about every single thing being told
I accepted the fact that it has already happened
but i cant accept the fact that it actually happen.
That moment was the moment that i hate most in my whole life.
I was being so helpless there.
I got nowhere to turn to at that moment.
I got no backups.
I GOT NO ONE.
I was there, all by myself
hearing those things.
Things that i feared most among all.
I had the biggest shocked afterall.
Something that i prayed so much that it wont happen,
initially, it happened.
I couldnt do anything but to listen.
I forced myself all the way through to listen to your words of explanation.
At the end of the day, i am hurt, deeply.
You are too cruel.
You are being too mean.
You are a heartless person.
Is this what i get for my reward?
Is this how you want it to be?
IS THIS HOW YOU SHOW ME YOUR APPRECIATION?
i dont deserve this.

God,
i am extremely hurt now.
It is too painful for me to bear.
please, give me all the strength to carry on.
What did i do wrong that i have to be punished like this?
Please, make this just a dream, my nightmare.
So when i wake up tomorrow, everything is back to normal.
ohh please ....

to person i referred to,
i know you will read this.
Read it. And understand it.
im too weak to do anything after this.
& who am i to you again?

nytes.

Labels: end this please.

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