BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Aku tak tahu whether aku should regret or not

on the decision that aku da buat.

When come to think of it theres no point aku shud regret.

But to the way aku live and how i lead my life,

Aku seriously macam regret semacam.

Aku have to live with that decision of mine.

Aku have to bear with it since aku yang choose that kind of decision.

Aku tahu that im just a very fickel-minded girl.

Aku tak tahu ape yang aku nak and taknak.

Aku ni jahat ke when it comes to this.?

Aku mcm tak pikir perasaan orang lain gitu.

When happy, aku lupekan.

When sad, aku carik.

JAHAT NYE NIE POMPAN!!!!!

Like it or not, aku have to accept it.

Korang pon have to accept the fact that AKU MCM GINI.

Aku tried to berubah but ........... ntahlarrr..

I know you cant read this.
But i hope this will sampai straight to your heart.

All i wanna say is SORRY.

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Smile, smile, smile,smile and SMILEEEeeeeeee!!!! =))

That was what i had been doing for the whole of yesterday's outing..
It was absolutely GREEEEAAAATTTT!!!!!
I had fun. I enjoyed myself. i love the two girlfriends.!(lynna and jannah)
I didnt expect them to actually bought me a birthday cake from jurong all the way to VIVOcity.
And and and, *dorg due nie BOLE JADI PELAKON TERBAIK!!!* thanks ehh korg...winkwink
We ate the cake, we played some true or dare game which is so embarrasing BUT FUN, and finally, we had some girls talk.* i like most*

ON FRIDAY,
i celebrated my advance birthday with my bestie NUR'AIDA PURWANTI BTE JAMEAT!!
We went for shisha and chill there for hours.
We had alot, ALOT and ALOT of fun!! hehe.
At last, we got to spent time again like before.*its been a long time*
Alot of fun things happened that day which i will keep it as memory of 17 years of age!!!

To GIRLFRIENDS,
I really wanna thank you all for spending your time to celebrate my birthday.I must say, it was the most memorable birthday gift i ever had. It was something that i have been wishing for all these while. Thanks girls. I really appreciate what you guys had done for me. THANK, THANKS, THANK YOU, girls... i love you lots..
&&&& For those whom wishes me through SMS, MSN OR LIVE phone call wishing, THANKS GUYS!! When i received those msgs, i smiled from ear to ear!!! hehehhe.
ONCE AGAIN.....
THANK YOU FOR WISHING ME!!!

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Obviously, TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY.. 26 JULY 2008!!

Im officially 17 years at age..

I was so happy yesterday that i almost cried.

Wishes for me from all my friends.

From the expected to the unexpected birthday wish..

THANKS ALOT GUYS!!!

I reallly love you guys..

Its the thought that counts, right??

I was so disappointed with him yesterday.

He din even msg me or wish me HEPY BDAY

instead, he picked a fight with me.

THANKS..

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Saturday, July 19, 2008

I JUST HATE SATURDAY TO COME!!!!

How i wish i could skip this saturday so that i wont be having problems like now.
I am now stuck with a few plans.
Everything does not go with the plan.
Everyone is asking me out.
And i couldnt decide who to follow.
S.H.U.C.K.S.sss

i will make up with you again.

i have been turning you down over and over again.

im sorry. i really hope you understand.

Dont get me wrong.

i will do what i have promised you..

That will be my promise..

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

I had enough. I just give up on them. I just feel like walking out and wash my hands off. Everything seems out of control. They really never think of other people feeling. All i could do is just shake my head and keep everything deep inside my heart. The devils is controlling everything and yet, she keep blaming on others. Everyone have no heart and feelings. I just notices that. House of Tarzans. Should i just keep myself this way? I just cant be bothered with what is happening around. I hate it a lot....

I miss my BESTCHILDHOOD friend.

I want to have the moment that we has spent together, again.

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Monday, July 14, 2008

14 JULY 2008.
12.05am...
I will always remember this DATE and TIME..
heheheh...

Lets hope it will be the most memorable 'adventure'..

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Oh my GOD, yesterday was the most horrifying moment for me.

Yesterday, i went to school with a bad cough. I was coughing like hell until my chest hurt.

I really couldnt concentrate in class but i tried my very best.

When i got home, i told my mum that i had a bad cough.

Mum gave me cough medicine which took me less than 10 minutes to sleep.

When i woke up, i just simply couldnt breathe.

I vomited quite a number of time eventhough i did not had any meals.

I told mum, i wanted to go to the clinic.

IN THE DOCTOR'S ROOM.

Doctor: what is wrong with you?

Mum: She's having asthma. She couldnt breathe.

Doctor uses his stetoscope and put it all around me.

Doctor: Eh, her asthma is very bad, you know. You have to send her to the hospital.

Mum: Huh? really?? That bad??

Doctor: Yes. See. She could hardly breathe.

ME: i dont want to be admitted in the hospital. Could you just give me medicines that can put me to sleep.?

Doctor: i will give you the medicines and you will have to use this

"ALATBANTUPERNAFASAN" thing. If by tonight, she still have breathing difficulties, MAKE SURE YOU SEND HER TO THE HOSPITAL. If she's OK, then tomorrow morning, which is today, bring her back to use the "ALATBANTUPERNAFASAN"

Mum and Dad was damn worried about me. They kept on asking me how am i feeling, whether i can breathe properly and more.

Its been years since i had my last asthma attack. If i were to be admitted in the hospital, that will the the 2nd time after 12 years.

After taking all the medicines, I hands are shaking. My voice sounds funny and i always gasping for breath. Sheeshhh..

This is how my weekend goes. I spent my time lying in bed, sleeping. All my plans to go out were ruined. I had to cancel all plans on friday and today.

haiyayaiyayai.....

Basically, aku 'gadoh' with haikal semalam. Fancy him not to understand my situation.

Tadi pagi baru nk say sorry for being rude.

haishhh...

*I have not been picking up his calls dari petang tadi*

wink..wink..

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

WHATS HAPPENING??

I dont know what is wrong with me for the past few days. My body feels very weak. I can hardly do any rugged activities. I will get tired easily and sleep like nobody business. Yes, it may not be a problem, but it really affect my daily routine. I had a hard time to wake up to school, i had a hard time to stay focus in class, i had a hard time to spend time throughout the night like i used to.

I just feel awkward with the changes i have made. Besides that, i can easily get muscles cramp all over my body if i were to be too tired for that day.. Heyy, this is so not me.!! i hate this me!! I started to become like one loser.

Haikal Dear,

Im so sorry because i couldnt went out

with you for the last few days including today.

I am so freaking tired that my body ache so much.

I will make up to you next week.. =)

*i miss him alot. heheh *

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Today is SATURDAY.. haha.. i just woke up. Mom said she wanna go to BUGIS/GEYLANG to eat this nasi bryani but cancel it because i woke up late. My cousins were on their way home already. Hehehehe. So, right now, im just plain bored. Everyone is taking their afternoon nap. sheesshh.. Bored.. Anyway, my stomach cramp is acting up again. Im having a hard time to relax myself. Thats the bad news larrhh.. My handphone is making trouble again. I cant send out my msg and it stuck.!!. stewpeed larrr.. Losing my patience with this ****** handphone.
Oh..ohh..ohhh... The good news is ITS GONE. HAHA.. Not totally gone.. But its almost gone.!! Celebrate it NORA.. Cheers to my patience.!

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Thursday, July 3, 2008

First of all, let me shout out of happiness!!!!

YESAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

*for me to know and not for you to find out*

Secondly, let me shout out of sadness...

GOOSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

*i know, this time round it is my fault. I guess whatever you wrote on that thing, should be all about me right? Even if its not, some of it, i am so sure it is about me. Telling you the truth, i felt so awkward whenever i met you. I lost my words unlike before. You think im ignoring you? I dont know. Im not sure. I want this to end as soon as possible.*

Thirdly, let me shout over something personal!!!

AAAAARRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

*Everything is getting out of control. I couldnt hide it no more.*

- I am just a young lady...# ;

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

I hope by today everything will come to an end.

Do pray hard for me.

Do tell me Im gonna be fine.

Do encourage me.

Do respect me as im just a weak soul.

Everything must end by today..

Its a must.

It affect my daily routine alot.

Ive changed alot.

I become more hot tempered.

I get angry and fed up easily.

I give up easily.

lost of confidence?

yeah

lost of trust?

yeah

lost of patience?

yeah.

Gain anything?

yeah..As in the bad ones.

- I am just a young lady...# ;