BEAUTIFUL LIFE

In just 4 months, i had been to the clinic for more than 3 times without my parents knowing. I dont want to do it on purpose nor to kept it as a secret but i just dont want them to know. Nobody knows about this, not even my bestfriends(if i remember having one).. Reason why i keep 'visiting' the clinic is to get my eyes examined. My both eyes really irritates me alot. It has been going on for 4 months till now. The last time i visited the clinic was a month ago. This was what the doctor said to me when i told him that my eyes was really itchy and painful.

Me: doctor, i think theres somtyng wrong with my eyes. It had been so itching for past few weeks.
Doctor: hmm.. i dont see anyting wrong. Your eyes is perfectly fine( while he uses the torch to looked into my eyes)
Me: really? but it irritates me like HELL and my eyes is swollen like goldfish.
Doctor: maybe because you are allergic to somtyng. Dont worry, i will prescribe you with EYEMO!!
Me: yarr tanks!!( in a very mad whispering voice)
Unfortunately, the EYEMO given didnt work out too well. Im still suffering from those itchy2 eyes! It may not look so bad now, but it hurts. My eyes will turn red as if it is filled with blood and swollen as if i just cried or being punched.! To make things worst, whenever i try to wipe off the watery inside my eyes, this 'white thing' will come out from nowhere. Until now, i am still wondering what is that 'white thing'. Now, my rashes is acting up again. It started to attack me all over again. Even the doctors cant do anything about it.! Even if they do, it will take a life time for me to recover.!

seriously, i am giving up my effort to recover myself from my sickness.. i just cant stand it. It may look nothing but it hurts me inside out.! How much longer should my body filled with drugs given by the doctors! Everytime i took the drugs(medicine) whether it is for fever, flu or rashes, my body will tend to shake.. The side effect is real bad..

- I am just a young lady...# ;